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A Long Year

by The Big Easy

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1.
Woke up today, I felt the same as I did last night No one can say that I was brave after the show last night I’d like to say whats on my mind, and I was just about to Tell you that, all of your friends around you Laugh at me and it drives me crazy And I don’t feel the same, like a different person I won’t place the blame on a single person I can’t get mad at what you did last night Cause last night you did what you had to And I won’t hold it against you Even if I tried to Woke up today, and it was great I lived another day How can I say I found my way when you left without me I love to regret my nights around you Cause when I bend my arms around you You break them like the thread I hold onto
2.
In the last few days I found out a lot of things about myself Like how many days that I have left until everybody knows I’m dead And it’s all because of you I learned a lot about these space probes They’ll never stop, they’ll never come home So thanks a lot, I guess I’ll stay here And send my signal for them to come home I wait for you, it’s all I can do A drink for two, I’ll buy it for you And wait/ I feel lucky to find out That it’ll always be this way I wait for you, it’s all I can do A drink for two, I’ll buy it for you And wait/ It’s a wonder to meet you You’re lucky to look this way (I wish it didn’t have to be this way)
3.
I fell asleep on the train last night And I woke up at your stop Then I asked myself how’d I end up here I hate the fact that I’m the only one whose here It’s just that it was the second time this week I swear that I was just waking from bad dreams And everybody who knows it won’t tell me That I was better off going back to sleep Look, I’m just saying I see the same things that you see I don’t talk to the people that I met I try to find out how long I don’t need sleep Cause everything is so different from last year I wish it sounded so simple through my ears And I can never be peaceful with myself I’m just another book to back on your self And now everything is falling straight through my hands I try to keep it together, I don’t think it matters I wish that I can call you and we’ll make plans To hang out in person, I know I’m not perfect I guess I’ll fake it till I make it
4.
Alone 04:13
My heart burns my chest and my arms I try to be where I belong My heroes are dead in the ground And I like that cause I’m always looking down With my face in my palms I hide when I’m loosing my mind And that’s often, it’s just when you’re on my mind I thought I’d be happy again And it’s clear that I was wrong again We want the same things Alone again So I just hide here With my face in my palms
5.
Basement 02:25
I was living in the basement And I could never see outside I always wondered what it’d feel like To pack my shit and take it outside I was living the basement And I could never see outside But I was happy in my own way I’m on a road to recovery I took my time to get this right Now all I ever say is bye I was living in the basement And I could never see outside But I was happy in a weird way I’m on a road to recovery I always wondered what it feels like
6.
It feels like you’re all I’ve got to hold onto I put some work into this just to see it through I just don’t know what to se when I’m alone with you I wouldn’t wish you the same but are you lonely too? I don’t expect you to believe me I always knew you’d put it past me How could I think that you would stay here alone? Dead from the start And now that I’m all I’ve got I can just lay here Beneath my unmade bed where I hide my fears Of pushing words through my teeth to get through to you I wouldn’t wish you the same but are you lonely too? Last night I made it back to where I try to sleep Then I looked all round to find my weed I couldn’t help thinking thoughts of how you sleep And how I wished that you’d be alone with me I don’t expect you to believe this I tried but I can’t pick up the pieces They’re broken from me, then you leave them alone Had A Long Year I don’t want to put pressure on you But how do you explain the way you left here? Do you know how hard it is to leave this alone?
7.
I hate when people ask me how I feel Cause I don’t know how to be honest with just about anyone about anything My dad said protect myself but how can I respect myself when they all make a liar of me? And I’m tired of me And I feel like I did that day when you told me I should feel this way It’s supposed to hurt, like I don’t know how to wake everyday with pain feels like I know I have myself to blame cause I try to forget my name You leave me for places I’ve never been and I’ll never go But I don’t think she minds If I could just hold her then I’d be stronger You make feel like it’s wrong for how I feel about it I know it won’t be long till I see what I don’t want to see You left me in a place you thought I’d never be You know, it’s hard I try to keep calm, I can’t keep calm I can’t be the low tier god I won’t be the low tier god They take me as the low tier god I feel like I fucked myself
8.
Sometimes I get to thinking That I wish my life was a movie And I can skip through the parts I don’t like Don’t you think that’d make for such a better life? But I know that you’re such a reader Do you still go to sleep in my T-shirts? You know, I always hated to see you cry Now the only thing I can admit is I realize that I always feel like shit It always ends like this One day I hope that you will realize how much you changed I wish I knew that it’d be the last time that I’d see you I would have told you everything’s cool It’s not that I played it cool
9.
Arguments are made for the case that everybody could use a bit of some kind of therapy Like everyone is just as fucked as me But I don’t think I need anyone to change the way I feel Cause I don’t think I’ll make it another year if it’s anything like how it was last year But we all need a little bit of somebody But I don’t think that I need anybody else to show me how to be somebody else I cant even recognize myself I feel like I’ve become somebody else I made a resolution to be happy cause I want this year to be different So here’s to another fucking new year And I don’t think I’ll get away from this I don’t think this year will be any different You made a resolution to be happy but you never felt so neglected You go and celebrate another new year And you’re hanging out with all your friends Cause you know that you’ll get away from this You know that this year will be different
10.
So all the secrets that you keep The ones you tell everyone but me Curiosity won’t know the fear of what I could be told There’s something to do when I am stoned It’s just this thing that I do when I’m alone I get too high to feel this low I get too drunk to feel this cold But it’s something to do when I am stoned I know that you’ve been right here before I wonder if you’d do it all again with me There are just so many ways to cut it As many times as you said you love it The company you keep, I wonder how they feel about me Did you tell them I was fucking stoned? Do they know I like being alone? I never knew someone could care about the way I fix my hair It’s something to do when I am stoned I wonder if I could take you home I’m sure that we’ll find something to do It’s alright, tell your friends you’ll never see this boy again It feels like the world was made for two I wish it was made for me and you
11.
Rodeo 04:09
The road was blocked we had to find a way around it But I was lost I never wanted them to find me Are you angry? Can you explain the way you feel today? It’s all the same, I have to know if you’re behind this I’ve been reading books again And I’m getting drunk again No matter who wins, they will never be able to hold the land But if you win, you will never have to be alone again I like it this way, It’s colder than how it felt yesterday To recoup the loss, I have to sell the things that make me whole You said you hate this place so when you leave, just leave Entertain the possibilities of taking company If they come, they’ll come, please don’t you worry they’re coming for me It’s so cold outside, please take my jacket it, I won’t let you freeze How could I believe that they’d be happier when they were on their own again? Conditioning themselves to believe again

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released October 23, 2020

All songs by Stephen Berthomieux
Guitars and bass by Stephen Berthomieux
Additional guitar on tracks 1,7,8,9,10,11 by Tom Warren
Additional guitar on track 4 by Stephen Adams
Drums by Pete Clark
Keyboards on Tracks 1,2,4,8, and 11 by Nick Jorgensen
Keyboards on Tracks 6,9, and 10 by Tom Warren
Backing vocals on track 4 by Nick Jorgensen

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